Facial Feminization Surgery FFS part two

FFS part two

   Well like us all we are never completely satisfied about our self’s. This is practically true for people with transgender disorder. You start off thinking hormones will be adequate but then after a year or so, you look in the mirror and see you still have those male features that you hate have not gone. So you make arrangements for your first FFSurgery you have it then after some time the old feelings come back. So off for more FFS you go.

   Well that is the way it is with me. I would look in the mirror and see my thin lips that make me look mean then there is the shape of my face it still looks triangular and sharp features making me look masculine. So contacted Dr.Saran and made arrangements for a consultation. He did not want to use implants but suggested fillers and Botox. After arriving at Bangkok and seeing Dr.Saran I decided that I would have fat taken from my stomach and have it put into my lips cheeks and each side of my nose. I had cancer on my nose so major surgery is out. Fortunately I had all the necessary blood and cardio test with me so it saved time.

   Then came the day for surgery. Dr.Saran he has a surgery where he can perform small operations, which saved the expense of a hospital theater. I was given anesthetic and off to sleep I went. On waking my navel felt a bit funny where they had taken the lipo-suction, it left a few bruises that soon went away. My face felt surprisingly good. But when I looked in the mirror what a shock (good), I had high cheeks, my lips looked really good and my nose looked smaller. By placing fat at each side of my nose it gave the appearance of it looking smaller. Dr.Saran also used Botox in my frown line and just above my eye brows to help open up me eye area. All in all I was tickled pink.

   Recovery was very easy, after a few days I had the stitches out of my navel. Now when I look in the mirror I see a much softer face looking back at me and then I smile with my new lips. 

In recovery 

The new me :) 

Getting Confidence living and dressing as a Woman

Getting Confidence living and dressing as a Woman

 When I was in male form I was very introverted and found it hard talking to people. As for parties and groups of people, I would find a corner or quiet place waiting for an opportunity to exit without being noticed by anyone. Crowds of people or eating in cafes I could not cope with, I would eat as fast as possible and felt that every eye was upon me. So the thought of transitioning was something that I thought would be very difficult if not impossible. But if I was to transform I would need to overcome my reserve. I had never gone out of the house dressed as Ina, but the time came when I had no choice but to dress as a woman. I chose a visit to my psychiatrist. I put on a knee length black skirt and a cream coloured blouse. Then I drove one hour to my appointment. I needed to take a lift to the first floor and another lady came into the lift she was very nice and asked if it was raining outside, this put me at ease. The interview went well and the doctor said he would give me my papers in a year of fulltime presenting as a woman. As I came out of the building a clap of thunder rang out wow I thought God missed with that lightning strike.   

After that we went to one of Melbourne’s biggest malls. While we were there Mary asked if I would like to have an engagement ring. This was such a loving gesture on her part as she was having trouble with my transitioning. As I mentioned this was on the first time out of the house dressed as a woman. The year passed and I slowly grew more accustomed to living full time as a woman, but I still had the usual problems of not being able to cope with people. When walking down the street I would look straight ahead and not at any one. If I needed to talk to someone I would look at something behind them or their ear. 

   This is how I would cope and it continued on till the wonderful day when I met Dayse in Bangkok we has srs at the same time and by Dr.Saran. She is the most wonderful outgoing person I have ever met. When we were well enough to get around we would go down to the restaurant in the hospital. Dayse would make a grand entrance and would have every waiter either blushing or smiling. She looks absolutely gorgeous and has a confidence that is very contagious. By her example I learnt to look people in the face and smile if for some reason I don’t get a response or get a negative response then I will give a little wave. For some reason people will usually respond to a smile in a positive way, and a wave in response. Dayse showed that she had respect for others. In the passage in the hospital there is provision for family groups to have tea there would often be a group if men of middle eastern extraction some very old Mullahs and younger men, as we would walk past she would greet the older men with a respectful greeting and receive a reply, but the young men she would give her cheeky smile. If it was not for Dayse I would have rushed past feeling embarrassed that the older men would be insulted or look down on me, but after that I would then greet then with a smile.

    Shopping  with Dayse  was an experience in Bangkok, I’m 6’2” and Dayse is only a little shorter so walking around the shops we would get quite a lot of looks but not hostile, so this also helped me realize that people looked at us because we were so attractive (well Dayse was). She is now my lovely sister and very matched loved.

    Not all of us have the privilege to know a Dayse to guide us but we can associate with friends that have a positive attitude to life. These may be male, genetic females, transgender friends, and family love ones. The main thing is to keep in mind that we are not alone on our journey, there are a lot of us out there and we all need to help each other as much as possible so try and not isolate yourself. 

Facial Feminization Surgery FFS

Facial Feminization Surgery FFS

About a year after SRS and looking in the mirror seeing a rather ragged person looking back at me I decided to have FFS.

Pre-FFS

Two Days After FFS

   

The end result

As you can see Dr.Saran http://www.doctorsaran.com/index.php has made a big difference to my looks. As result it has made a big difference to my confidence. I know that the person inside is the most important factor when we are living our lives. At sixty five I was looking my age as the sun, working with chemicals and having a very male body made the decision easy. As you can see from the photos I could do with FFS (not the worst photos).

          Getting to the point of FFS went well. I contacted Ying and asked if Dr.Saran would:

·        Full face/Neck lift (with platysmal/SMAS tightening)

·        Upper and Lower eyelid surgery (Upper and Lower blepharoplasty)

Ying got back to me with the quote so it was all go. I went to Bangkok and was picked up by Ying and taken to the Piyavate Hospital. The next day met with Dr.Saran and was admitted to the ward, that night I was operated on. I woke up with pads over my eye this was a little disconcerting but I soon got used to it. The nurses would help me go to the toilet, they were very sweet.  As you can see I was bruised around the eyes, but strangely it looks worse than it was, there was very little pain. 
With the face lift there was stitches around my ears and to the top of my head. On the top of my head where there were two drainage tubes, it sounds painful but it wasn't. After a couple of days the tubes where removed it was a strange feeling when they where being taken out but no pain. The wounds from the face lift feel quite strange when you sleep with your head on its side. This feeling lasted for about six months. The wounds have healed with out any visible scars, which is fantastic. There was very little maintenance just massaging the swelling under the eyes and keeping things clean. 
    So I was very happy with my FFS with no side effects. But like all operations you will need to consider all the risks in having FFS.